born for this

I know I was born for those things I wish. I can feel it. My mind, my body, both reject anything but it. I won't deny it, or avoid it. With every inch of myself I fervently wish for it to be finally true, waiting for the strength I need, in order accomplish what I ask for, to overcome me. Now I have one entire month ahead of me, destined to gain what I so badly need. No one will be there to stop me, and they'll all marvel with the new me as I come back. I know it, and I'm all for it. Wait, and you'll see.